confusion sets in

you ever feel like you are lost? like you are walking in a never ending black room. no lights, no sun, just black all around. surrounded by darkness with no way out. it starts to close in on you. can't breathe, can't move. frozen in time, frozen in place. you feel around, running hands down the wall, up one side and down the other...searching. not really knowing what you are searching for, but knowing that you can't stop. for the life of you, you can't stop searching. feeling around for a door or light switch. ANYTHING that will help you shed light on your situation. no idea what you are doing or where you are. just pure black. you have glimers of hope when you think your eyes are finally adjusting to the darkness. maybe now you can see, get some guidance, get out of this black hole....but there it is again. Complete darkness. The panic sets in again. Chest is getting tight for this situation is not good for the claustrophobic. Feels like you have been crawling and crying and feeling and fumbling for hours upon hours, to no avail. You are faced with two choices. Keep fighting for your life and hope for a way out or give up. Give up, curl up in a ball and cry. Cry yourself to death. Give up. No more hope. Everything is gone. Family, friends, light & life. No more smiles, no more sunshine on your face, no more hugs & kisses. Nothing but blackness. Deep dark hole with no way out. No hope. Giving up now....losing faith and hope. Can't keep trying. Just too hard. Can't do this anymore. Can't. Keep. Going. On.