Response's

I said in an earlier post that I have some dear friends....most mainly online, but they are near & dear to my heart. I have gotten some great comments from a few of them, so I am going to respond to their comments here.

Jessica said...

(((hugs)))
Carn,
You are such a wonderful friend.

Sometimes,
I wish that I could meet you face to face just so I could wrap my long monkey arms around you and give you the biggest hug known to mankind.
:)
Oh Jess....you are the sweetest, kindest girl. i hope i get the chance to meet you one day....to hug you right back. I know you are sad and hurting and going through so much right now...but please know that I love you. With every fiber of my being, I love you!! I will never forget when you asked me if I was smiling. And I knew what you were talking about. That conversation, though small and insignificant, meant the world to me. You talked to me on a level that not many people do. Thank you, friend.

The other me said...

ahhh BUT have you ever imagined what you could be if you weren't you? If ever I wish I wasn't me, I look out for someone I would hate to be even more..it never takes too long! I remember when I was a single mum and had to clean a friends house to just to make ends meet, she had a huge 4 bed, 3 bath beautiful show home type place and I told her one day how lucky I thought she was...she then told me that she hated walking through the door of her show home because there was such misery there, she told me that she would trade with me any day because I had a home and joy in it.....you're not stupid and everyone is needy....I just wish you were more happy right now.

Helen--I know that I don't know y ou very well, but I admire you and love you just the same. Your stories and your wisdom never cease to amaze me. Thank you for your kind words. They mean a lot and come at just the right time. And you are right...the grass is not always greener on the other side of the fence. But there are times that I would like to frolick in that what-appears-to-be-greener grass. You know? I know that I would not fit into any other life other than the one I am living now, but sometimes I wonder. I have a VERY active imagination. LOL.

I think that I have given people the wrong impression about me here. I know it seems like I am always sad and down and depressed...however, I am not always like that. I think that this blog helps me to get my deepest darkets feelings out. I don't have to hold them inside and not purge it from my system. I might sound like a broken record on here with the tears and whatnot, but in real life...I am a pretty happy person! I am smiles and laughs and fun! So while it seems as though I am not happy, I am...I just have some deep, dark, hidden saddness that seems to just come out on here. Thank you to each and every one of you that care enough to want me to be happy. To send me virtual hugs and wishes for happiness. I take it all to heart and cherish each word.

Thank you sooo much!!